Muscle pain, again!

Morning Y'all

Ok I've got to get something off my chest.  WHY on earth would Kaitlyn bring Nick into the house with all those great guys? Doesn't she see that he's a total douche?  Amirite???

Ok, that's over with.

I figured it was time for another update, since it's been a couple of weeks now since my wire change and the addition of the torture device powerchain on my lower braces. It's been a rough couple of weeks to be honest.  The pain from the powerchain lasted a few days, longer than I had anticipated.  While I can't really bite into anything very well, there was a time when I couldn't even touch those teeth.  On the other hand, the gaps are closed now. It happened so quickly, which shouldn't be surprising since it hurt so damn much!

I notice that in terms of my jaw and teeth fitting together, things are (as anticipated) getting worse.  When I bite together now, the gap between my front teeth and all along the right side of my mouth is getting bigger.  It also feels like my jaw is moving backward in my mouth, but that could just be mental.

I'm also noticing in pictures of myself that the asymmetry in my lower face is more pronounced, which is troubling.  I know people say they don't "notice" it, but it definitely doesn't look right, and in my mind it makes me look a little.....slow, if you will.  Maybe a little too "jolly", and not in the good sense of the word.

The worst part is the muscle pain.  It is getting so tight and painful that I find myself short-tempered and tired lately.  Last night I was trying to massage it out, and I found myself crying and saying "why did this happen to me?" to the hubs.  No fun.  He suggested I take a muscle relaxer before bed, and so I did.  It definitely helped me to get out of the house this morning and go to work - I had thought I'd be needing to rest up today.  And I might still need that day later this week, it all depends. I'm definitely still feeling it today.

I don't think that it's any secret to the people who know me that I've been trying to get pregnant before I have the big surgery.  Since I'm 34 years old, and my son's turning 4 in September, I don't really have the time to wait until it's all over and done with so I'm trying to just sneak a pregnancy and childbirth into the wait time for TJR.  No biggie.  But that's left me wondering what I'll do if I find out that I am preggo and can't take my anti-inflamatories/muscle relaxants anymore?  I don't take the latter all that often, but I need the AI's to stay out of day-to-day pain.  And the MR's are huge to get me out of a pain crisis.  I'm pretty terrified of the idea....not enough to give up on having a #2, but pretty scared.  We'll have to up the acupuncture/massage budget significantly in that case. 

Well that's it for today folks.  As always, keep on feeding the courage wolf.  Mine's getting more fierce everyday.